Stars Still Shine

When I was 16 one of my favourite things to think about was that even in the darkest times of our lives, God gives us glimmers of light.. that the stars continue to shine. It's funny because I was recently reminded of that this past week.

I have been grappling with coming to peace with the fact that I am to remain here for another full year. I know it is what I'm supposed to do but some days I can't even picture being remotely content for that much more time.. (15 months if I let myself count down).

Last week was particularly upsetting as a relationship that I thought had potential, ended and I suddenly felt all new waves of loneliness roll in. It's harder to get over things here because there isn't a plethora of others to distract me.

So there was that, and then the fact that my apartment is terrible and the thought of remaining in a place that floods, smells slightly, has plumbing woes, houses cockroaches and other critters and always seems to have something else wrong with it, was just adding to my anguish.

Well Tuesday morning the headmaster paid me a visit (my perma-guilty conscience freaked right out, automatically assuming I was in trouble for something) and he told me that they didn't like my house and so they were "forcing" me to move. Because they were asking me and I wasn't asking, they gave me a few options. One was an upstairs unit a few houses down the street from where I live now and the other was a massive 2 bedroom apartment in a high-rise in a perfect location! So I went to see the big apartment (usually reserved for married couples) and I really liked it! It's bright and spacious and has lots of room. It's on the 25th floor, so has an excellent view but even more exciting, it's a 5 minute walk to the mall, the gym and Starbucks, a 3 minute walk to The Coffee Bean and other nice little outdoor restaurants and is closer to school.

It was just what I needed! Even though I was feeling lonely and sad about being here even longer, this suddenly happened and there is that glimmer of light and hope! Things are looking up!