Sunday Evening Thoughts..

Well... 6 weeks left and I will have completed my second full year of teaching. I think I am almost getting the hang of this! It has been quite the year and I am filled with excitement at the thought of the approaching holidays but also the next school year. Things are seeming bright.

I spent most of this past weekend hanging out at my apartment by myself. I have a very bad ear infection and despite going to the International Clinic, it doesn't seem much better. I will go back tomorrow and see what the deal is. Anyway, the point is not that my ear hurts (although sympathy is appreciated) but rather it is the fact that I have spent quite a bit of time on my own and that has lead me to thinking quite a bit.

I have been thinking about patterns in my life and how when I look back at all of the things I have done well and also all of the times I have messed up, I can really see God protecting me and working, even when I'm not being terribly cooperative. I think about how even when I feel like I'm struggling in my walk with Him, He has used that somehow to draw friends closer to Him. I think about the times I've messed up and gotten myself into really potentially dangerous situations.. and while often He has let me learn lessons the hard way, He has also protected me from getting too hurt or creating irreparable damage. It's very humbling to see that no matter how broken and useless I can be, He can use me and that He is taking care of me. It really has nothing to do with me.

I see God's protection all the time. I see how He saves me from potentially bad relationships and situations. While sometimes I am upset about how it plays out, I take comfort in the fact that God is in control and working and knows what is best for me! It's pretty incredible!